borrowed heart

                It is not easy to forget someone who has been a part of your life… someone you used to be with, every hour and every day. Someone who is willing to spend all his time just to be with you. Someone who is willing to go under the rain just to spend even a single moment with you. Someone who is willing to wait even though you are the slowest person in this world. Someone you wanted to see from the very first moment you wake up and opened your eyes. Someone you wish to be with you while you are sleeping at night. Someone you couldn’t live a day without hearing his laughs, seeing his smiles, feeling the warmth of those embraces and tasting the sweetest kiss from his lips. Someone who is willing to tell you the craziest jokes just to make you laugh. Someone who is willing to sing even though he doesn’t have that great voice. Someone who gives you those pick-up lines even though it is the corniest one. Someone who wants to have those crazy little fights that somehow turned into burst of laughter after realizing how much you mean to him. Someone who drove you away but would not let you to do so. Someone who misses you even though you’re with him.  Someone who is never tired of telling you the word “I love you” over and over again.

                It is not easy to get rid of a person when all you want to do is to be at his side all throughout the day. But how could you possibly endure all the pains knowing that that someone whom you want to spend the rest of your life is now on other’s hand? How could you accept the reality that those laughs, smile, hugs and kisses you are longing for each and everyday is now for somebody else? How could you convince yourself that those promises and dreams that you have shared with that someone were now wasted upon? How could you make yourself believe that your someone is on someone else’s arms?

                After all the pains and sorrow that he had caused you, you still believe that he is the only one who could make you happy. How could you hate that person when all you know is to love him over and over again? How could you stop your tears from falling if he is the only one who could stop you from crying? How could you stop yourself on thinking of him if he is always part of your dreams?

                It is not easy to let go of your feelings for someone even through all the pains that you experienced ever since he left. All you wished to do is to stop yourself from believing that he would come back even though it’s very impossible. Just like you are waiting a jeepney on a train station. You want to forget that someone but all those things and places always reminds you of him. You want to show him that you are strong enough to ease the pain but deep inside you’re drowning. As if there is no one there to save you.

How could you possibly accept the reality that while you couldn’t live a single second without him, he is doing fine without you. When you are all alone, you always remember those crazy little moments with him while he almost forgotten who you are as if he doesn’t know a single detail about you.

Would you still love him even though he loves somebody else? Are you willing to give up just for the sake of his happiness? Are you ready to stop waiting and start forgetting? Would you stop crying and start leaving? Would you stop dreaming and start believing? Or are you willing to wait until he comes back to borrow your heart once again?