Personality in friendship

You value your friendships: 60%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it’s actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody’s friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Type of Personality

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they’re around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That’s because you don’t want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

Personality in Love

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that’s why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don’t just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person’s personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn’t meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

The Real Me

Here is the analysis:

1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don’t have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
2. You don’t really care about other people’s feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn’t always about parties.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people’s advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up–it’s okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you’re like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

Get To Know Yourself Better

Your view on yourself:

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

The seriousness of your love:

Your views on education

The right job for you:

How do you view success:

What are you most afraid of:

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

borrowed heart

                It is not easy to forget someone who has been a part of your life… someone you used to be with, every hour and every day. Someone who is willing to spend all his time just to be with you. Someone who is willing to go under the rain just to spend even a single moment with you. Someone who is willing to wait even though you are the slowest person in this world. Someone you wanted to see from the very first moment you wake up and opened your eyes. Someone you wish to be with you while you are sleeping at night. Someone you couldn’t live a day without hearing his laughs, seeing his smiles, feeling the warmth of those embraces and tasting the sweetest kiss from his lips. Someone who is willing to tell you the craziest jokes just to make you laugh. Someone who is willing to sing even though he doesn’t have that great voice. Someone who gives you those pick-up lines even though it is the corniest one. Someone who wants to have those crazy little fights that somehow turned into burst of laughter after realizing how much you mean to him. Someone who drove you away but would not let you to do so. Someone who misses you even though you’re with him.  Someone who is never tired of telling you the word “I love you” over and over again.

                It is not easy to get rid of a person when all you want to do is to be at his side all throughout the day. But how could you possibly endure all the pains knowing that that someone whom you want to spend the rest of your life is now on other’s hand? How could you accept the reality that those laughs, smile, hugs and kisses you are longing for each and everyday is now for somebody else? How could you convince yourself that those promises and dreams that you have shared with that someone were now wasted upon? How could you make yourself believe that your someone is on someone else’s arms?

                After all the pains and sorrow that he had caused you, you still believe that he is the only one who could make you happy. How could you hate that person when all you know is to love him over and over again? How could you stop your tears from falling if he is the only one who could stop you from crying? How could you stop yourself on thinking of him if he is always part of your dreams?

                It is not easy to let go of your feelings for someone even through all the pains that you experienced ever since he left. All you wished to do is to stop yourself from believing that he would come back even though it’s very impossible. Just like you are waiting a jeepney on a train station. You want to forget that someone but all those things and places always reminds you of him. You want to show him that you are strong enough to ease the pain but deep inside you’re drowning. As if there is no one there to save you.

How could you possibly accept the reality that while you couldn’t live a single second without him, he is doing fine without you. When you are all alone, you always remember those crazy little moments with him while he almost forgotten who you are as if he doesn’t know a single detail about you.

Would you still love him even though he loves somebody else? Are you willing to give up just for the sake of his happiness? Are you ready to stop waiting and start forgetting? Would you stop crying and start leaving? Would you stop dreaming and start believing? Or are you willing to wait until he comes back to borrow your heart once again?

letting go

Why wait for someone, who doesn’t intend to come back?

Why stand for someone who couldn’t stand for you!!!???

Why believe in someone, who intends to lie to you?

Why love someone still, who does and will always hurt you?

How could you still believe someone who always breaks your trust?

How would you know if he still says the truth or lies?

How could you made yourself believe of his sweet words?

If once he had broke those words and never stand for it?

Would you still believe because you love him?

Or would you wake upon those crazy dreams that eventually became nightmares??

Are you willing to wait still believing he would come?

Even though he just left you behind without telling you that he was leaving?

Are you willing to give your heart again?

To that someone who broke this and could possibly break it all over again?

Would you still give all that you have?

Or would you stop and say that all you had given is enough??

rain

The storm has just passed

All the loneliness were washed

still the cold breeze lingers

I couldn’t move any of my fingers

I stared at nowhere

finding you anywhere

tears fell from my eyes

when I realized that I’m alone in the ice

and then I saw you standing there

you seemed so happy with her

I tried to call you but there is no voice

I couldn’t make any noise

I am longing for your embrace

all I want is to touch your face

when could I hold your hands

when could we be together on where you stand

How could i win you again

am I just waiting in vain?

please tell me for me to know

should i stay till tomorrow…?????

fallen

mananatili

akala ko nung itinago ko ang nararamdaman ko

walang magbabago sa pagtitinginan nating dalawa

pero bakit lahat ng saya ay naglaho ng parang bula

bawat panahon at oras na inilaan sa bawat isa ay tila alikabok na tinangay ng hangin

tila mumunting mga luhang pumatak sa kalagitnaan ng karagatan..

akala ko noon di magbabago ang pagtitinginan

goodbye

you said you have find someone else!

now all i could say is GOODBYE

waiting

kailan

 

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DEVASTATED MELODY

Every moment i turn myself to sleep,

i couldn’t control myself not to weep

each time i would go to my slumber

all i want is to be with you forever

i could hardly remember the sweetest smile on your face

it gives me joy even in simple ways

your misterious lokkk that makes me uneasy

it was chasing me uncomfortably

How i missed to hear you sing a song for me

just as i closed my eyes your voice accompanies me

but the music you made had gone and left me

where could i find the devastated melody?

 every  note from that piano you used to play

the sound ot your guitar that makes me sway

were now gone lika a colorful rainbow

just like a dust that fades as the wind blow

you are like a rain that fell out from the sky

come unexpectedly without giving reason why

and when it is time that i got used to it, it would leave without saying goodbye

and i have nothing else to do but to cry

untold

“LOVE vs AMBITION”

I looked at you and you smiled at me. And all my days started to change. You are the one who gives me reason to smile every morning and the one who caused my sweetest dreams at night. And I’ve realized that I have this feeling or you, a feeling which they called as “LOVE”. But the greatest tragic in my lie came when my parents announced that I should leave to find my luck further from you. This news broke my heart because I would be separated from you. This brought me to confusion! Should I choose my ambition far from you or choose you, away from my ambition?

“THE TRUTH BEHIND LIES”

(The secrets behind love vs ambition)

“I LOVE YOU AS A FRIEND, AS A BROTHER…” These words… these are the words that hurt him a lot. But now, these are the words that were hurting me a lot… “YOU LOVE ME JUST AS A FRIEND, JUST AS A BROTHER…” Now I loose a friend, a companion, a brother… And I don’t know now how to bring him back. My greatest fear came into reality… “PLEASE STAY, PLEASE DON’T GO” I pleaded him not once or twice but many times… Is it hard for him to stay??? “WHEN YOU NEED ME, JUST CALL ME AND I WOULD BE THERE” But where is he now? Does he vanish just like his promises…?

In life, you have nothing to hold on to but yourself and the courage to accept all the unexpected things that may come into your way. Sometimes, people are kind in the beginning but may be cruel in the end. They might be there from the start but when you need them, they would just leave you behind. Just like garbage that is thrown into thrash after they have profit. What hurts more is when you find out that all they have shown to you are lies… and the hardest part is we have fallen in love into them more than we have planned to… And we don’t know what is what and which is which!!! All we know is we love them without asking anything in return but their happiness.

Last April, I have written “LOVE VS AMBITION”. Why? Because that was the time that I realized that I’m in love with one person. I don’t have to mention his name… I just don’t have the courage that time to tell him how I love him, what I feel for him. “DO YOU LOVE ME?” “YES I LOVE YOU AS A BROTHER” I know it would hurt him but I just need to. I have no choice. I was confused that time. I was afraid. I’m coward! I’m coward to admit that I love him. I hide my feelings because I’m afraid because I’m not sure of my feelings. I’m afraid to loose him! But now he’s gone forever… “I’LL BE BACK, I PROMISE…” Now these are the only words I’m holding on right now.

minsan (10-12-09)

saan man ako bumaling ikaw ang nakikita ko

kahit sa pagpikit ng mata, hindi ka mawala sa diwa ko

ano ba ang ginawa mo? bakit ako nagkakaganto?

naguguluhan ako, sagutin mo naman ako

walang oras na di kita naaalala

ang mga ngiti mo sa akin ay nagbibigay ng saya

saan man ako pumunta ay hinahanap hanap ka

di ko alam ang dahilan bakit nais kang makasama

bawat sandaling kapiling ka’y laging nagugunita

hindi ko maunawaan ano nga bana meron ka?

itong sinasabi ng isip ko ay tila naiiba

sa isinisigaw ng puso kong iba ang dinidikta

masakit sa akin ang ginawang paglayo

upang pigilin ang nadaramang pagsuyo

,ahirap para sa akin ang ika’y nasasaktan

lalo na’t alam ko na isa ako sa dahilan

sana’y di nalang nalaman ang totoo

kung ito naman ang sanhi ng iyong paglaho

sapat nang maipadama ang nararamdaman

kahit minsan sa panaginip lamang..

untitled

I haven’t guess we would go like this

If i just have a clue, I wouldn’t ask you who she is

I just want to be sure of the doubt in me

but this is not what i supposed to be

Now i’m blaming myself of what i have done

I pity myself now that you’re gone

If only you have’t yold me the truth

maybe it would not come out to this fruit

I don’t know now how to bring you back

because when you changed it brought me to shock

but still I’m hoping that someday

we could be the same as another day..

Memories (The Truth)

As I write the letters of this note

I am wishing you’re here writing a quote

I missed the time we write together

Could we repeat it again or never?

Just when I completed one stanza

I am hoping you could write another stanza

All the lines of this poem are not complete

Could we write another sheet?

Now two stanzas were made

You’re writing another line is I prayed

If I just could turn back the time

 I would return it to the time you haven’t decline

I know it might not be fair 

To make you feel how much I love and care

Because for me you’re just a brother

And I want it to last forever

Why couldn’t I let you go?

It is because maybe someday I might know

 That my love for you is more than a brother

But it is too late because you’re happy with her….

Note: I would like to thank melody for typing and editing this poem…

missing piece in me

My endless sleep has awaken

But all my nightmares still remain

Alone in this empty room where my tired body laid

I opened my eyes but the darkness didn’t fade

The cold wind that touches my skin

Pamphers me and my whole being

My soul was filled with too much sadness

But still there is no one who could witness

I could still remember the smile on your face

Now it was chasing me in this cold empty place

I could still recall the times you wiped up my tears

And make me believe that there’s nothing I should fear

I am now lost in this grave of long lasting grieves

But where are you? Why do you have to leave?

When you go, you brought a part of me

Please come back cause you’re the missing piece in me